Signs – Sermon by the Rev. Jordan Hylden – Second Sunday After Epiphany – the Church of St. Michael & St. George

Jesus did this, the first of his signs, in Cana of Galilee, and revealed his glory; and his disciples believed in him.  

Growing up, one of my favorite pastimes was reading mystery stories.  I too seldom allow myself the time to read a good mystery anymore, but I remember the distinct pleasures of a good Sherlock Holmes or Agatha Christie story well—it’s all about noticing the clues, of course, and a good writer will always have scattered red herrings in along with them.  As you read, you ask yourself things like: why didn’t the butler deliver the letter to the lady of the house?  Did he do it on purpose, or did he just forget?  Why didn’t the dog bark in the nighttime?  And so on, and so forth.  The story’s entire world hums with possible significances and hidden meanings, there to show you whodunit if only you had the eyes to see.  You sift for clues and try out different stories in your mind—was it the Colonel in the library with the knife?  The butler in the pantry with the rope?  You do all of this knowing full well that at the end, if the author has done her job well, you will inevitably be shown up by the story’s detective hero—Sherlock Holmes or Hercule Poirot will have noticed clues that were right there in front of your nose, and tied them together with things that never occurred to you but of course make perfect sense, and all of a sudden you’ll smack your forehead and say—of course it was the butler all along!  Of course he was in cahoots with the scullery maid!  Why didn’t I see that the whole time?

I wonder sometimes if the appeal of detective stories has a lot to do with our desire to live in the kind of world they portray—a meaningful and mysterious world, full of clues and hints to something that lies hidden in plain sight, with some kind of story that makes sense of it all.  Not to mention, a detective who makes sure that the culprit is caught and justice is done.  I wonder if mysteries appeal to people in large part because they have a hard time seeing the real world of their everyday lives as that kind of place.  The theologian Robert Jenson points out that for the past two thousand years of Western history, people by and large saw their lives as dramatic narratives, as stories that went somewhere that matters—take for instance anything by Jane Austen or Shakespeare.  Someone like Lady Macbeth is destroyed by her own misdeeds; someone like Miss Emma Woodhouse grows and changes from a rather spoiled and insufferable girl into a mature and considerate young woman.  Behind each story arc is the much longer story arc of the world they live in—one that, as Martin Luther King famously said, may be long indeed but bends toward justice.  Shakespeare and Austen told the sort of stories they did because they assumed that the world itself was a great story, written by a single Author who is also our Judge and our Redeemer.  Back behind Shakespeare and Austen lay Milton’s Paradise Lost and Paradise Regained, and Dante’s Divine Comedy, and back behind them lay the Bible, the world’s great story of creation, fall, and redemption.  In Dante’s day, people thought that the world bears traces of its author’s design, clues to where the story is going, for those with eyes to see.  Perhaps you have come across, in an old church or a medieval piece of Christian art, a stylized mother pelican feeding her young, and wondered what it was doing there.  It was thought, though it is not actually true, that in times of dire need mother pelicans will feed their young with their own lifeblood by striking at their breast, so giving their lives for their children.  It is easy enough to see why this was taken up as a symbol for the work of Christ, who gave his life for us.  But we would misunderstand them if we thought they merely found it to be a convenient symbol to illustrate their beliefs.  It went deeper than that—they thought that they saw in the pelican a trace of the Author’s hand, a clue hidden in plain sight that told of the true story of the world.  Of course there were red herrings scattered about, that might lead one to believe that suffering, sin and death would have the last word, that life was a tale told by an idiot, signifying nothing.  But here was a real sign, and they knew it because the Author of the world had entered into the story itself to shine a light on all of our darknesses and confusions, and had shown us that at story’s end, justice will be done and the lost will be saved.  For them, the world itself was a kind of mystery, because within it and behind it and beyond it lay the mystery of Christ.

Perhaps you are thinking: this is all very interesting as a matter of art and literary history, but we don’t believe that kind of thing nowadays—pelicans aren’t images of Christ, they’re just funny-looking birds that evolved a certain way for no reason more than it helped the pelicans to make more pelicans.  Maybe so.  I do not think the pelicans are a ditch that the Christian faith has to die on, let alone the second chapter of John’s gospel.  But John does have something to tell us about what it means to have eyes to see, and what God has done to change our way of seeing.  As John tells it, Jesus goes about Israel performing signs—the wedding at Cana was the first of seven—and these signs were meant to reveal his glory.  In the chapter following ours, the Pharisee Nicodemus, who had heard of these things, said to Jesus: “Rabbi, we know that you are a teacher who has come from God, for no one can do these signs that you do apart from the presence of God.”  Jesus answered him, “Very truly, I tell you, no one can see the kingdom of God without being born from above.”

Seeing the kingdom of God is no simple thing, and the modern mindset doesn’t make it any easier.  It may well be true, of course, that modern people are right to say that the pelican is just a funny-looking bird, and not a sign of Christ.  But it may also be true that medieval people gained much more than they lost in seeing the pelican as they did, because the story of the world really is written by a divine Author who entered into its drama as one of us, in order to turn the story arc of the world away from tragedy and back into deep comedy, the divine comedy he had planned to write all along.  It may well be that their eyes were better at seeing signs of this story than ours.

There are things beside the modern mindset that make it difficult to see the kingdom of God, of course.  Perhaps you find yourself at Cana today.  Perhaps the wine of joy in your life has run dry, in your marriage, in your health, in your family or friends.  Perhaps you fear that the banquet is at its end, that the guests will one by one make their excuses and get up to leave.  Perhaps they already have.  Or it could be that you are like the Israelites in Isaiah’s day, and you are tempted to look around and call your land desolate, your home forsaken.  Perhaps it is hard to see things any other way.  That’s where all the signs seem to point.  That’s where the story seems to be going.

That’s why God gave us a sign, in Christ, of the world’s true story.  In this world it can sometimes be very hard to see past the signs of desolation and loneliness and decay.  So into this world God came, to show us we are not forsaken but married, loved by God as a bridegroom rejoices and delights in his bride.  Into this world God came to show us that the wine of joy will never run out, that the well of the water of life will never run dry.  For those with eyes to see it, he is still here—he is alive in the church, and he invites us each day to come to the table he has set for us, to eat this bread and drink this cup, of forgiveness and new and unending life in him.  He has given us these signs.  The last word of the last sentence of the story of the world, and of our lives, will be written by him.  Amen.

Bible Study Notes – Isaiah 43

Unable to withstand more judgment yesterday’s cold January evening, the intrepid Monday Night Women’s Bible Study broke rank and jumped to Isaiah 43, just for the evening.  So, now–more reflections on the same chapter as the last (entry), with much more brainpower behind it!

“Do not fear, for I have redeemed you” (Is. 43:1)

“Do not fear, for I am with you” (Is. 43:5)

What does it mean to “fear” God?  Isn’t this discordant with God being all love and all goodness?  What do we have to fear in him?

If we’re–with God’s help!–seeking the good and have experienced just a taste of the goodness and perfection of God, then we’re growing in virtue, and, knowing what it is like to be in the presence of real good-ness, we really are (or would be) afraid to behave in a way that takes us away or separates us from the good, and true, and beautiful in life.  Our fear is of being separated from God–we are not afraid of anything else that might come upon us, because if God is with us in whatever trial or event or danger we experience, we have nothing to fear.  God is with us.  This promise he makes in verse 5 is described in v.2–see post below–and this God who promises to be with us no matter what we face is someone you really want on your side (see vs. 11-13).

This talk of “fear” led us to reflect on the difference between fear and anxiety: fear is born of an experience–if we’ve touched a hot stove burner, we are afraid when we are pushed from behind toward a stove that’s on.  Anxiety is from anticipating–dreading!–something that we have never experienced; it’s worry.  We’ll always have fear, it’s just a matter of what we choose and habituate ourselves to be afraid of; anxiety is not something we have to have.

God’s promise to be with us is elucidating in another way; one of our number shared how different she felt when she broke up with her college boyfriend of two years compared to when her father ended up in the hospital for a heart attack–in the case of her father’s illness, the extended family showed up quickly and en force, her immediate family was not alone, and though it was a scary time, they were all together in it, and it was beautiful, she said, because of the love that she felt.  On the other hand, when she and her boyfriend broke up, the despair was engulfing–exactly because she was alone, and the cause of the pain was a declaration of alone-ness.

The discussion of fear and of being alone reminded me of Daniel and his friends in the fiery furnace.  They tell the king, “[W]e have no need to present a defense to you in this matter.  If our God whom we serve is able to deliver us from the furnace of blazing fire and out of your hand, O king, let him deliver us.  But if not, be it known to you, O king, that we will not serve your gods and we will not worship the golden statue that you have set up.” (Daniel 3:16-18).  God is God, and he can save us–but even if he doesn’t, he’s still God.  Actually, here’s a sermon that says all of that much more articulately and beautifully. (The Rev. Dr. Sam Wells)

Epiphany – Following the Light

We’ve been living for a few weeks in the in-between times.  In between the half-seasons of television shows, I mean.  Since the beginning of December, most series have taken a hiatus, and this next week, the dramas and comedies return in full force.  Not least—Downton Abbey Season Three starts on this side of the pond tomorrow night/tonight at 9pm.  Our recording devices will return to their usual, almost-full-to-capacity status, and our ache to find out if the hero will return from his coma will, hopefully, be sated.  We are desperate to discover whether the heroine will ever find true love, we despair along with the couple who seek an adoption, but keep falling into heart-breaking loopholes.  Of course, this could be more than just television; we could be facing these sorts of hopes and tensions in our real lives, too.

These stories, great and small, deep and vapid, true and fictional, speak to our need for a narrative of a love so extraordinary as to change everything it touches.

This is, perhaps, something of what the wise men sought as recounted in our Gospel passage today.  Matthew tells us they packed up their camels and trekked across a continent to meet this new baby King.  These wealthy, busy men didn’t send a messenger, or even have Babies ‘R Us ship a gift to Jesus.  These studiers of the heavens had seen something big—this light in the heavens—and whatever it was that caused the light had to be seen in person.  They were desperate understand and to be near the event that had made even the predictable skies look new.

They rushed to Jerusalem to congratulate Herod on this great event that had taken place in his backyard; they were eager to get directions from Herod about where exactly to find this child-king.  Imagine these impressive, imposing men standing on your front porch, knocking on your door.  They’re wild-eyed and overcome—bursting with joy for the adventure they’ve undertaken.  Herod opens the door in his bathrobe, having been roused from the couch watching reruns on TV, and stares at these men blankly.  What are you doing here?  What do you want?

They practically bulldoze him, rushing through the rooms of the house, tearing down the hallways, spouting their research and the prophecy they had found as they hunt desperately for the person they desire.  It quickly becomes clear that Herod hadn’t been paying attention to the lights in the sky and the signs around him.  He pulls his bathrobe around himself a bit tighter, and a cloud forms over his eyebrows.  He narrows his eyes in thought, “it’s not bad enough that I’m living in the Roman Boondocks,” he says to himself, “now there’s a rival that everyone knows about except me.”  As soon as the wise men stumble off to Bethlehem, he returns to the couch to brood and to cook up a scheme to unseat this new king.

The wise men troop down the Jerusalem hill, out into the countryside.  They’re on edge, they know they must be close to the place where the world has been changed, the place the light has been leading them on their long expedition.  They arrive in Bethlehem, on the main street.  The light keeps alluding them, they duck behind buildings and then stretch high on their camels to keep an eye on the light.  As they get closer and closer to the light, they realize they’re in a shady part of town.  There’s the coughing of illness, the stench of poor plumbing, probably a few ladies of the night in some doorways.  The tension is incredible—where are they going to end up?  What’s going on that the light is leading them to this kind of place?

Suddenly, almost imperceptibly, the light halts—they were, perhaps, confused, but as St. Matthew puts it, they were absolutely “overwhelmed with joy.”  They stood on another front porch, much less-grand than the last one, still seeking a king.  I imagine this greeting was very different from the grumpy ruler they’d left in the big city.  Joseph and Mary were still in the throes of sleep-deprived early-parenthood, and to make matters more stressful, they’d both been having dreams and it was becoming clear that their reality—the quiet life they’d envisioned, raising a happy little family in Nazareth—was not the way that things were going to play out.  Now, foreigners showed up on their doorstep, and they begged to see the newborn.

Can you imagine the scene?  Joseph and Mary, bleary-eyed, but trying to be hospitable, the travelers, dusty and exhausted, but rapturous finally to be in the same room as this child of promise.  Each of them were stretched to their absolute limit—emotionally wasted and physically spent.  The light had led each of them to this place—the very edge of survival; and it was here that they found Jesus.

Are you there this morning?  Perhaps the holidays were especially hard this year—so much changed in the last twelve months, and 2013 stretches as far as the eye can see.  A long trip, even a cross-continent, trek on a camel, sounds like a dream-like escape.  Overwhelming joy would be a lovely feeling to experience, but there’s so much evil in the world and so many broken relationships in your life that “joy” doesn’t seem like a state of mind meant for you.  I wonder what it was that made the wise men overwhelmed with joy—if it was their aching feet, or their home-sick hearts, or some other force quite outside themselves.

In Jane Austen’s novel, Emma, the young heroine is satisfied with her unmarried life, contentedly spending her time matchmaking others.  Throughout the novel, she is plagued by her brother-in-law, Mr. Knightly—his much-more-pleasant brother had married her sister.  At the climax, Emma has realized, by his absence, that she is desperately in the love with him and must marry him, and he returns, she thinks, to admit his love for her best friend.  Her despair turns quickly to joy when he says that his trip to his brother’s house in London was no comfort—that her sister reminded him daily of his feelings, and that he returned to the country just to be near her again.  He says, “I rushed back, anxious for your feelings, I came to be near you.  I rode through the rain, but I’d ride through worse than that if I could only hear your voice telling me that I might at least have some chance to win you.”

Jesus went on a very long journey in order to arrive in Bethlehem.  The Son of God was with God from the very beginning—even before time, as the Gospel passage from John told us last week.  And after the creation of the world, after centuries of time passed and after God developed relationships with Abraham and Isaac and Jacob and Moses; he wooed the Hebrew people and showed his love for humanity by telling us how to follow his light and how to thrive in relationship with him.  Finally, the Son of God came to earth, as the most extraordinary act of love ever known.  He ended up in Mary’s womb, where he grew for nine months, he got crowded in there and made the long, dangerous trek that we all do into the big, wide world.  In response to this incredible odyssey Jesus Christ undertook, the wise men thought that the least they could do was to take a trip to see him for themselves.  The light came to them and they responded.  They traversed the wilderness to witness the miracle of the greatest love the world has ever known—God himself coming just to be near us.

The Feast of the Holy Innocents – In Remembrance of the Children of Sandy Hook Elementary School – The Church of St. Michael & St. George

On Monday, we gathered in this very room with our families and with dressy clothes and candles and a great glorious noise to celebrate the coming of God to dwell among us as a human.  This is the miracle of our faith.  Here we are, four days later, still in the midst of the Christmas season—you can see the flowers and the festive hangings—remembering the slaughter of infants in Bethlehem for the sake of Jesus Christ.  We also remember tonight all innocent children who have been killed throughout time, especially those babes at Sandy Hook Elementary School.  In this world, there is grief in the midst of rejoicing.  Our God is not afraid of our grief, nor does he shrink from our questioning and doubt.

In grief and fear, we have choices about how to respond in our questioning.  As we wonder about power and love and God, we can try to shore up our power and leverage it for other’s fear, which is as close to love as you can get when you want to keep ahold of your power.  We can also try to use our love to leverage power—we can try to legislate love into others’ lives, demanding that they behave lovingly, or else!  Finally, we can try to love without inflicting power, which is easiest when we have none, but possible when we have a lot of it, too.  Let me tell you stories that might illustrate these three approaches for you.

There was a man who wanted to have a lot of power.  In reality, he was not very powerful, people didn’t listen to him the way he thought they should, and this made him very angry.  He was isolated and this made him lonely, and it made him resent the attention that others received when he thought people should be paying attention to him.  To deal with his pain and with his powerlessness, he realized he must silence those who were stealing attention from him.  His loneliness obscured the truth that there is plenty of attention—that is, plenty of love—for us all.  He grasped at the little scraps of power that he had and he threw them as hard and as cruelly as he could at the object of his hatred—those who had love, though they had no power at all.  Babies.  This man’s name was Herod.

Another man, knowing that power alone would not solve the problem, turned to love.  He was certain that if we just loved each other harder, we could solve all the problems.  The real answer, this man, Lawrence Krauss, argued on cnn.com,[1] was to provide better mental health care and gun control.  This scoffer-legislator, a professor at Arizona State, dredged up self-righteous religious commentary to expose the inadequacy of the other side, as he saw it.  Why do people turn to religion, he asked, it is full of halfway love, emasculated love.  For example, our president himself said, “‘let the little children come to me,’ Jesus said, ‘and do not hinder them. For such belongs to the kingdom of Heaven.’ God has called them all home. For those of us who remain, let us find the strength to carry on.” I think he meant to be comforting, but both professor Krauss and me take umbrage with the sort of God who would choose to gather up young children into his kingdom by subjecting them to brutal murder in their first grade classrooms.  Dr. Krauss doesn’t stop there, though, he bolsters his interpretation of the Judeo-Christian God by invoking Mike Huckabee’s recent comment on Fox News, “We ask why there is violence in our schools, but we have systematically removed God from our schools.  Should we be so surprised that schools would become a place of carnage?”[2]  These statements both enrage Dr. Krauss, and lead him to mourn the situation in which non-religious people find themselves—being told that some all-powerful deity visited judgment on their children because of the state of society.  Angry at the injustice he sees and the inadequacy of this God’s supposed love, Dr. Krauss declares the only solution: jettison the illusory God and take love into our own hands.  We must work tirelessly for policy that provides emotional and communal support for grieving families, and fight for better mental health care and gun control.

God has survived thousands of years of humanity misinterpreting and maligning his name, and he surely does not need a diminutive twenty-six-year-old woman defending his honor.  The God who calls little children home is not the God I know.  He’s not the God whose character is revealed to us in the Bible.  We know the Bible’s stories and the loving, righteous, just nature of our Lord.  He asked the children to come to him unhindered because their parents were embarrassed at their offspring’s exuberance.  He accepted a prostitute’s kisses and care, knowing that she recognized him as God and desired to express with all her being the regret she felt and the love she had for him, her Savior.

A third man happens to have a lot of power in his situation, but chooses not to wield it at all.  He surrenders his options and chooses the hardest thing—to love. In Leo Tolstoy’s Anna Karenina, the heroine’s husband, Count Karenin, a prominent member of the government and a very wealthy man, accepts into his home and lovingly raises the child his wife conceives with her lover, Count Vronsky.  Karenin surely didn’t joyfully call for this child to be created—“oh please, dear wife, be unfaithful.  Be so fully and repeatedly unfaithful that even in your twilight years of fertility, you bring forth a child with another man!”  But once this child has entered his house under less-than-ideal circumstances, Karenin welcomes her warmly, with open arms, and treats her as his own.  Even after Anna dies, and no one is around to hold him accountable for his actions toward the daughter of this extra-marital liaison, Karenin gratefully and gracefully accepts the results of others’ sins, loving both the sinners and the children they affect.

Amen.

Christmas Day – Joy to the World! – The Church of St. Michael & St. George

“The hills are alive with the sound of music!”

Perhaps that’s not the song you came to church to hear today, but that’s what we just sang in the psalm together.  “Let the hills ring out with joy before the Lord.”

What is joy?  When do we experience joy in our daily lives?  Novelist Zadie Smith argues in a recent essay in the New York Review of Books that though we humans often experience pleasure—perhaps over a great tumbler of whiskey or a dog’s sweet companionship, joy is a much more rare and complicated emotion that is necessarily overwhelming and entangled with fear.  It is the sort of thing that we could not bear to experience often, but when we do, we laugh and cry and can’t catch our breath and whether or not the event or its results are sustained, our lives are forever different for having experienced it.

What a miracle happened on Christmas!  As we glimpse the enormity of this moment—just as when the shepherds saw the whole sky filled with bright angels—we burst forth with shouts of joy.  In this moment, a joyful song we’ve sung before doesn’t fit—we need a whole new way of communicating to try to express this new age of God’s rule.  This marvelous thing so unlike anything that’s happened before, we need a new song, a fresh account of God’s deliverance.  Even the past looks different now that we know that God is here, in this place.  Now.

There’s little else we can do with our joy but to sing, even the hills and seas are alive with the Promise that God fulfilled in becoming human on Christmas Day.  After centuries of oppression, exile, and dispersion, The Promise has come to fruition.  God has come to earth, he’s come into the middle of the mass of humanity and become human himself.  God has made himself as close to us as he possibly can.  It’s like how doctors treat pre-mature babies in the hospital—they’re administered skin-to-skin contact from their parents as if it was medicine.  Resting on their father’s chest, or feeling their mother’s hands on their back, is as powerful as any manufactured pharmaceutical we have devised.  God’s touch, his own hand and arm, as the psalm tells us, brought forth this miracle for our sake.  God came in Jesus to heal us.

God has made good on his Promise now—today—Christmas.  We are so precious to God that, given the choice to exist in peace and quiet and perfection for eternity, which, after Christmas morning with little kids, might sound pretty good, or to exist with and among humanity, he chose us.  God has chosen never to be except to be in relationship with us.

Joy isn’t the only thing we feel today, nor is it the only thing that Mary, Joseph, the shepherds and others at Jesus’ birth felt.  Just as they had questions about what life would mean and look like in light of this new reality, we do too.  God’s companionship is the only answer to all the questions.  Why can’t a brother and sister acknowledge the brokenness between them and reconcile on Christmas?  Why can’t parents and grandparents set aside their pride and stubbornness and entrust their son and grandson to God’s capable hands?  Why are children shot and spouses beaten and people starving?  Our only answer to evil is that despite its presence in the world, God’s presence is with us too, and God’s love is more powerful than brokenness and death and destruction.  The Promise God made to Abraham and to his descendants, the Israelites, is the same promise we can now claim as humans, because Jesus came as a human to save all people.  God gave us Jesus out of his love, and Jesus is the touch that allows us to survive.  He is the image of the invisible God.  Jesus is God-with-us.

This truth, this joy that is revealed to us in Christ’s birth, this is the steadfast love that God is showing us.  God has remembered his mercy and truth toward the house of Israel, he’s fulfilled his promise this morning.  We sing a new song because a new thing has happened—something incomparable to all other experiences we’ve ever had.  God reaches out and touches us.

To offer back to God our joy and thanksgiving at this marvelous gift, we gather together our harps, our trumpets, our organs, and pianos, and violins, and flutes.  But even with these and with our own voices, the effort is paltry in comparison to the new thing God has done.  Let us gather up the noise of the whole world—the roaring sea with its clapping waves and the ringing music of the mountains—all oriented to shout praise to God for this great gift he has given to humanity and to all creation.

Joy to the world!