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midwestern belle, Episcopal priest.

Quotation of the Day – Amy Grant

Amy Grant Behind the Eyes“It takes a little time sometimes
To get your feet back on the ground
It takes a little time sometimes
To get the Titanic turned back around
It takes a little time sometimes
But baby you’re not going down
It takes more than you’ve got right now
Give it, give it time”

From the 1997 classic, “Takes a Little Time,” by Amy Grant, on her album, “Behind the Eyes”

Two thoughts:
1. Countless hours were spent blasting this from my CD stereo in the driveway, while I choreographed dance routines on my Roller Blades.  So you think you’re a child of the 90’s?

2. Almost 20 years ago, these words reminded me that everything in my adolescent life would be okay, they were my rosary.  Now, they speak to this young woman’s heart, reminding me again how long and slow life sometimes seems, and that maybe that’s a good thing.

Where are you? Come out!

a sermon on Matthew 22:1-14

At the beginning of the parable, the passage reads, “they would not come.”  Why didn’t they want to go to the banquet?

Perhaps, to figure out why someone wouldn’t want to go to the banquet, we should understand what the banquet is about–for whom it is given, where it is taking place, what is required for entrance to the event.

Who are these servants who have been sent out to compel others to come to the banquet?  Why would they be killed for their message?  What kind of invited guests are these who not only send their regrets with lame excuses, but then go so far as to kill the king’s help?

What is this parable about except the history of the world–the history of God’s relationship with humanity?  In the beginning, when God had placed Adam and Eve in the garden they ate and then they disobeyed and they hid themselves.  God came to them in the cool of the day, walking in the garden, looking for his people whom he’d created and whom he loves, wanting to feast with them.

He said, “where are you?”  They had hidden themselves from him because of their shame.  The king in the parable today, looking for guests with whom to share his feast, asks the same thing–“where are you?”

Later in Israel’s history, the nation suffers exile.  What does God do but send prophets to them to bring God’s message of mercy and invitation and repentance?  What do the people do but kill his prophets, those who have been given the task to compel the invited guests to come to the banquet, to find themselves in God’s presence, to be made whole by God’s nourishment and to be filled with joy?

From our vantage point in history, we can see that the banquet which is prepared for the wedding of a king’s son is the Holy Eucharist–the feast which God instituted through Jesus and has prepared for everyone to enjoy.  So why isn’t everyone there?  What is keeping people from coming to church to experience God’s gift, the feast to nourish and give us life?

This is a question almost as old as humanity–“where are you?” In the passage just before this one, which we heard last week, we hear the parable of the vineyard.  Something similar has happened in this story–the vineyard owner sets up a top-notch operation and finds some tenants to put in charge.  What happens in this parable is familiar: when harvest time comes, the owner sends a servant for the rent–for his share of the profits of the land.  As you may recall, or may be able to guess, the tenants aren’t particularly kind to the servants.  They beat one, and killed a few more.  The same thing happened to the second set he sent, and then, in a last-ditch effort, he decided to send his son to collect the rents.  As you can imagine, this didn’t go well–the tenants, predictably, killed the son.  Jesus asks those listening, “what do you think will happen to the tenants when the owner himself comes?”  and again, predictably, you can imagine those listening, many of them pharisees, did not like what was told them (Matthew 21:33-46).

After reading these two parables together, someone asked me this week, “Is that where we are right now?  The son is dead, and we’re waiting for the owner to come and make things right with us?”  Praise God that this is not where we are!  The son is not still dead–the Son is alive, he was raised on Easter morning, of which every Sunday is a memorial and a recreation.

There are pieces of each of our lives that are stuck there–we still see sin in our world in war, we see it closer to home in the ways our relationships with each other are broken, how we are selfish, how we are careless and let our brothers and sisters go hungry and slave away for clothes we wear.

But there is resurrection and redemption, too–we see it in love that is more powerful than counting and mounding up wrongs against me, in the beauty of music and art and reconciliation, in families that continue to show up for one another, in people who give up their lives to make others’ lives better.  We live in the already and the not yet.  We live in the midst of sin and darkness, and also in the middle of God’s light–the full revelation of who God is to humanity in the person of Jesus Christ.

We still sometimes choose darkness and disobedience, we sometimes fight against desires that draw us away from God and each other, but because of the freedom we have been given through Jesus, we also have the power to say no to darkness and to say yes to light–to God’s invitation, which is for us, for everyone.

At the end of this parable, there’s a sort of strange image–there’s a wedding guest there, who seems to have stumbled in and he doesn’t have the right clothes on.  The king is outraged and throws the guest out–what’s up with that?  If everyone’s welcome, if everyone’s invited, why on earth would the king be so petty as to care whether someone is wearing the right clothes?

But what’s going on here isn’t just about decorum or about the way that something looks.  It’s not about society or about being appropriate for Page 6.  Wedding clothes would have been made available for these guests as they came in–a closet near the door, or perhaps the equivalent of a dinner jacket hung up for the use of anyone who needed one.  Just slipping on a jacket (or toga, or robe) would have been a way of showing honor, gratitude, and acknowledging the importance of the event to which the person was invited.  The person walking around without the pro-offered jacket was a slap in the face, not just a fashion statement, even the equivalent of flipping the bird.

Being appropriately attired for this event is not something we can do on our own.  Everyone’s invited, everyone’s welcome, but everyone’s got to be humble, too.  This man, who refused to accept the clothing offered, in effect communicated that he thought he didn’t need any help, he was fine on his own–he was full of pride, perhaps even drunk on it.  In this day and age, especially in the sorts of lives with which we’ve been blessed (as you must be reading this on a computer, with access to the internet!), it’s easy for us to believe that we’re totally self-sufficient, that we are not only welcome at the banquet, but can pay our own way in.

Deep down, we know that we’ve still got darkness tempting us, we know that we’re still living broken lifestyles, we’re still selfish and prideful.  We need God to clothe us.  We need God’s light to wash away our darkness and to make us fully able to enjoy the feast prepared for us.  We don’t have to hide our darkness, God already knows it, as our Collect for Purity puts it (“from whom no secrets are hid”).

We are invited to the banquet, God sends his messengers to call us in, he asks us not to hide, but to come into the light and be clothed by it, by God himself.

Where are you this morning?  Come out, and join the banquet!

How an Atheist Became a Priest: The Persuasiveness of Simple Things

RHendrickson's avatarA Desert Father

I am a fan of Ricky Gervais.  I have loved the BBC version of the Office longer than I have been a practicing Christian.  I followed Ricky on Facebook a number of years ago and his posts generally amuse me.  Yet, occasionally, he posts some fairly vitriolic anti-Christian items. He is an avowed atheist who seems to consider religion with about the same level of charity as Hitchens and Dawkins.  Sometimes this frustrates me to no end.  Ricky also often posts about human rights and animal rights and part of me wants to shout to him that some of the most vocal and effective proponents of both are people of faith.

Yet, I can’t always shake my feeling that sometimes, somehow, he has it right.  I don’t mean that he has it right that somehow religion is an awful and fruitless thing.  Or maybe I do mean that, I suppose.

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Christians be Crazy

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Last Sunday, I got to do one of my favorite things which only happens a few times a year: I gave communion to a member of our parish community who has Downs Syndrome.  Though a faithful attender, with such a large parish, the stars and communion lines don’t often align that I get this honor; it’s always the best moment of the morning for me because, unlike every other member of the congregation, this friend grips my fingers for a solid four or five seconds when I place the wafer in their hands, and looks at me straight in the eyes.

Our tangle of fingers and met gazes are the essence of communion.  Jesus meets me in this parishioner’s body.  This precious person, living with Downs, is a conduit of God’s grace to me; what a gift to be given–I cherish it, knowing that there are many more people with just as precious gifts to be offered, living with various levels of validity in our society (or not even given the opportunity to live in this broken society that would be so blessed by their presence).

“Now the manifestation of the Spirit is given to each one for the profit of all.” (1 Cor. 12:7)

A friend of mine wrote about this same thing in his own life on the Covenant Blog earlier this week, too.

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This counter-cultural value placed on every life reminds me of the story this week of Brittany Maynard, a 29-year-old with terminal brain cancer who is planning her death for November 1st, using Oregon’s option for assisted suicide as a way for her to “die with dignity.”  I read about it first on one of my favorite blogs, Cup of Jo, and I was devastated by Joanna’s closing comment, “I’m so moved.”

In response, another piece has been circling the internets, by another young woman, named Kara, also living with terminal brain cancer.  She writes an open letter to Brittany, asking her to consider another path–to not choose death now.  This path is one that I believe is brimming with dignity (it’s the one Kara has chosen for herself), though it is also full of dependence, weakness, and pain.

Close friends of mine just welcomed their first child–another time of life full of dependence, weakness, and pain.  I imagine they’re spending their lives with dirty diapers, spilled milk, big black circles under their eyes, and a mewling infant–where’s the dignity in that?

When we’re faced with circumstances in our lives that threaten our control, we can shut down and batten down the hatches and strong-arm control out of the rock-and-hard-place, or we can open ourselves up to the circumstances that throw us out of control; we can open our arms, we can kneel–or even fall on the earth if we need to, we can continue to breathe deeply and let the circumstances change us.  We can let ourselves be made into something new–something with a different kind of dignity (which doesn’t depend on an illusion of control and independence), the kind of dignity that may be full of spilled milk (or spilled-other-bodily-fluids), and stinky diapers (whether at the beginning or end of life), and sleepless nights (tending the fragile light of life in another person’s body).

Dignity doesn’t have to do with being independent, or avoiding any way in which you might burden someone else.  Dignity has to do with openness, peace, and love without regard for circumstances.  Indeed, dependency is a beautiful form of dignity–knowing that your essence is not mangled by being out of control of your body, or by pain which you suffer, but that the essence of each human being is the Image of God, which cancer, and age, and infirmity can never hope to touch.

happiness list

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1. Sam Smith.

This man’s music has been the soundtrack to an intense week.  Having started listening to him (inspired by NPR) when I was traveling this summer, his music is an instant pick-me-up.

2. the lemon gingertini.  Clearly, inspiration lurks everywhere: after sampling this cocktail at LAB last week, I came home and immediately bought an intense amount of ginger to recreate it.  Here’s the recipe I’ve settled:

0.75 oz lemon juice (why not make it fresh?  It’s about 1 lemon for 2 drinks)

0.75-1 oz ginger syrup (1 cup water, 1 cup sugar, about 10 inches chopped fresh ginger–in a saucepan on medium head.  Let the sugar dissolve, then let the ginger steep for 45 minutes or so–low or no heat–and strain.  Keep in the fridge)

2 oz gin

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3. The intense week.  This was my favorite.  Truly.  I had super meaningful breakfast, lunch, coffee, and dinner dates with dear people who challenge and inspire me; they remind me that I do this work because my deepest joy is listening to God with others.  As I told one of them, “If I didn’t have a job, if I wasn’t paid, for fun–I’d just make lunch dates with friends and hear about what God is doing in their lives.”