Easter Sunday Sermon

John 20:1-18

Christ is risen!

The Lord is risen indeed, Alleluia!

Amen. 

Mary Magdalene goes to the tomb in the early morning – the other gospels speak of other women coming with her, and of them carrying supplies for Jewish death rituals. She goes to the tomb with expectations based on her experiences in life, formed by her religious beliefs, and rooted in her sense of reality.

She expects to find a cave with a dead body in it, the only earthly remains of her beloved teacher, and I imagine, as millions of women have done for thousands of years, she expected, after an awful weekend, a few quiet moments with her grief. 

That is not what she finds. I wonder if this has happened to you. If your expectations – how ever hopeless they might be – have been upset and disappointed. If you have faced a diagnosis, or gone into a job or even just gotten out of bed in the morning, and the reality that you walked into was nothing at all the way you expected it would be. 

Sometimes our expectations are surpassed – the weather is better than we could have hoped for, and the timings for the party work out like they’re a well-oiled machine. Sometimes our expectations aren’t met, the timings fall short and the presentation drones on, the work is so much harder and less fulfilling than we could have imagined, the house structure has so many more problems and so much more damage than we first estimated. 

And sometimes, our expectations aren’t too small, or too large, but they turn into something that’s not about Goldilocks at all. Our expectations are just on a completely different plane. I believe that’s what’s happened to Mary Magdalene this morning, and I wonder when it might be applicable to us, too. 

Mary Magdalene’s perspective wasn’t just adjusted this first Easter morning, her reality was obliterated and rebuilt. I wonder whether we’re open to having our expectations, our perspective, our very reality, obliterated and rebuilt, too. 

Here in the Gospel of John, we’ve read of the raising of Lazarus from the dead. Back in John 11, Lazarus falls ill, and Jesus hears of it – he’s one of Jesus’ best friends, the Gospel says – and rather than going to him right away, Jesus waits a few days. Then, as y’all know, when Jesus arrives at Bethany, Lazarus has been dead 4 days, which, in Judea as in Houston, is a long and hot time for a dead body to be lying around. Jesus raises Lazarus. Though Lazarus then dies again later, we imagine, of old age, there’s a hint, a sort of expectation introduced, that resurrection is something in the realm of God in Jesus’s reality. 

And yet when Mary Magdalene comes to the tomb this Easter morning, and when she finds the tomb empty, it doesn’t say that she wonders if Jesus has raised himself from the dead, like he did with Lazarus. Even though we see from Lazarus that resurrection is the sort of thing that God would do, her mind goes to grave robbers – which seems sort of strange to me, since Jesus was a poor and his followers weren’t wealthy either – there wasn’t any ransom or money to be gained from robbers taking his body. Surely, though, many more grave robbers were walking around in first century Judea than resurrected bodies, so we can imagine how Mary Magdalene would assume this to be the more likely culprit. 

I wonder how we, like Mary Magdalene, get caught up in the assumptions and expectations from our experiences, our beliefs, the roots of our realities. I wonder what things we allow to form our expectations, to dictate our perspectives. Jesus did this resurrection thing once to his friend Lazarus, but there are hundreds of grave robbers. That makes a lot more sense. 

What beliefs do we carry around? What expectations do we have that blind us to God the Gardener standing in front of us? What perspectives are we so married to that God may need to strike us blind in the midday on a road to Damascus? 

How might we miss the resurrection of the Son of God while we are determined to find a rotting corpse to wrap and sprinkle with spices? 

We find throughout Scripture that as God does the sort of thing that God would do – showing up on a mountain and purifying with water and energizing through fire – humans continue to do the sort of thing that humans do. And I must tell you, brothers and sisters, that what we do is get stuck. We are incredibly gifted at forgetting the miracles and ways of God in Jesus, we are unbelievably talented at misunderstanding and taking offense, we are so adept at considering ourselves the wise ones while everyone else must be adrift. These are the stories of Scripture – of God’s unfailing love in the face of our unfailing stumbling. And I don’t think we’ve improved much in the ensuing 2,000 years, whatever the Enlightenment says.

So when Jesus does appear and Mary doesn’t recognize him, she’s acting no different than any of us might. Hanging on to our assumptions, our expectations, that this strange man who has shown up at dawn at her teacher’s tomb has surely taken away the beloved body, the only earthly remains of this leader and friend, and she begs him to give back the broken bits of her beloved that she could cling to them for just a moment longer. That for one more hour, it could be some kind of familiar normal again, despite the death, despite the dark, despite the danger.

And what does Jesus say to her? He calls her by name. He brings to fruition the prophecy he gave of himself earlier in John when he said, “The sheep hear his voice and he calls his own sheep by name and leads them out… I am the Good Shepherd.” Jesus calls her name and she immediately recognizes him. Finally, she can have the moment she has been expecting since she awoke in the dark this morning. She can cling to his body, still bruised, but no longer dead. 

Maybe her expectations were a little off, but we’re back on track now. It can be as if the last days were just a bad dream. Maybe we can even get back to the traveling and the preaching and the healing ministries, and just follow our Lord, the Rabbouni, like we did before. It is a wonderful Easter morning, indeed. 

But what does Jesus say to her now? “Do not hold on to me, Mary.” This is not like Lazarus’s resurrection when he is restored to you and life goes back to normal. This resurrection is the central event of all time, this event which you are the first to see and touch is the fulcrum of reality. This morning, Mary, is the embodiment of the truth of the universe. 

We cannot cling to the bruised bits of the past, or the crumbling structures that have come before. We cannot continue in the path of normalcy or expectations or assumptions that have led us to this point. Everything has changed because this God made known in Jesus Christ has by his resurrection to eternal life restored the path of the universe and the course of history and the direction of all creation. 

We come to church each Sunday as a little Easter, because we are people who get so stuck in our expectations and are so formed by the experiences around us and so bogged down by the assumptions that pummel us day in and day out. We need to be reminded this day and every day, and not just Sundays, that God in Jesus through his resurrection obliterated our expectations of what broken relationships mean and how addiction clings and who controls our future and in what we may trust. 

What freedom might you practice if God could really heal your wounds and your relationships? What might you say, and what might you keep quiet about, if God in Jesus breathed life into dead bones? How might you spend your time if God really holds power over death? What if sin were really defeated? 

Here’s the Good News, Brothers and Sisters. It is. Christ is risen. Amen. 

God the Good Gardener

“Every branch that bears fruit he prunes, that it may bear more fruit.”

Look at the stained glass windows around you this morning.  They’ve been given at various times for various members of the community, and as any chorister will tell you, they’re a symbol of how God’s light shines through each of us.  As we look closely at the passage from the Gospel of John this morning, I want to offer these to you as a metaphor for God’s work in us as we consider what it means to be pruned, and where exactly the Good News is in the revelation that we should expect spiritual amputations. Continue reading

What’s Scripture got to do with it?

Mathis_Gothart_Grünewald_019The Resurrection: In Accordance with The Scriptures (part of a sermons series with the Rev. Canon Dane Boston)

This afternoon, in continuing the series begun so brilliantly by my colleague last week as Dane preached on Jesus’ bodily resurrection, I will focus on how Jesus’ resurrection is Scriptural. Continue reading

my view in Easter

just over a year ago, a clergy colleague said to me, “You’ve got to go through Good Friday in order to get to Easter Sunday.”

I’ve known since last April that this year’s Holy Week and Easter would be a turning point for me; last April, I had a very painful ending to a job and place I had started to love very much, and this last year has been a trudging road toward a new, good normal.  It’s not that I’ve necessarily arrived somewhere now here in Easter week, but that Lent and Holy Week were a big looming hill that I’ve crested–April 2014, and though I’m aware enough of God’s work to keep me dependent on Him, I feel like I can see beyond for a little ways, and oh my goodness, is the view lovely.  I want to share a bit of my view.

Last June, I showed up on Trinity’s doorstep bedraggled, emotionally and spiritually.  I’ve spent a lot of my first year trying to “balance” self-protection (having suffered deep burns in my formative first year of full-time ministry) and priestly vocation.  Parishioners did not take offense, but patiently loved me, offered themselves, gave encouragement–they showed up.  On Sunday, as I walked in procession through these dear people, I realized how I’d fallen in love with them; how their love had given me balm to heal.  They showed me that even in the midst of pain, the best way to be is honest and real and unprotected–“balance” as such doesn’t exist, and ought not be sought.

As a two-clergy family, we have to work hard to find non-“work” friends.  It’s a good thing that most of our community comes from our churches, but it’s also comforting, on the road to healing, to have a few friends who you know truly only put up with you because they really do like you for you (this is my own trust issue, not a commentary on the faithful friends I’ve been given through Trinity).  The first time one of these now-friends said, “Hey lady, you’re looking different today; you doing okay?”  I almost cried & hugged her.  Someone who had no social contract to notice me decided to notice anyway (it happened to be Ash Wednesday, so yes, I was a little tired).

Less than a week has passed, and already I’ve been shaken to the realization that it’s not a storm that I’ve come through and left on the other side, but a shift into a new way of being.  In doggedly pursuing healing in the last year, I’ve been learning to notice things–notice and relish the faces in the Easter Day crowd who you’d last seen pained and in hospital; notice and celebrate the tears welling up while you process through the middle of this loving crowd who has shown you Jesus; notice and be curious about the super-tight feeling in your stomach that won’t go away–don’t try to figure everything out, or to label every passing experience, just notice it, be present to it, say “Hello, you’re here right now, and I’m here, too.”

This is a more vivid, larger, and more painful way to live, being present.  But that’s what God is about.  God is so determined to be present with us that he came to sit with humanity in the person of Jesus Christ, and he continues to be present with us through the Holy Spirit.

The Holy Comforter comforts us in all our troubles so that we may comfort those with the comfort we ourselves have received from God (something like 2 Cor. 1:4).

 

Jesus stays, Jesus stays.

“Crucify him!  Crucify him!”

Last Sunday, we played our part, joining in the dramatic reading of the events leading up to Jesus’ death.  We yelled “Let him be crucified!” along with the jealous crowd (Matthew 27).  Someone told me afterward that she always waffles about whether or not to say those words out loud with the rest of the congregation; it makes her uncomfortable, and it just sounds so horrible.  I knew what she meant–I closed my eyes this year when I joined in the shout; I just couldn’t bear seeing the angry crowd in front of me, it felt so real.

The horror is that it is real.  In dozens of ways, we shout “Crucify him!” every day.  When we respond in anger, when we deceive and rationalize, choosing the easy way out instead of the truth, we turn our backs on the reality that God offers us.  It’s like throwing God’s playbook into the trash and letting the door slam as we walk away.  We insist on our own way and our own wisdom, just like Adam and Eve in the garden, just like Jesus’ disciples who were scattered in Gethsemane’s garden–just like every human throughout time; except for Jesus himself.

What a strange God we worship.  What kind of God leaves his abode to come down to this broken place called earth?  Once arrived, what kind of God takes on the limitations and stresses of human life, living inside the confines of a human being?  As a human, what kind of God endures a fraudulent trial leading to trumped-up death charges and a humiliating spectacle of an execution? What kind of life is that? What is he revealing to us about the truth of love?

As Jesus hangs on the cross (as he did at this very hour), people mock him; someone asks, “If you saved others, why can’t you save yourself?”  Another says, “If you’re really God, the way you say you are, why don’t you come down?  If you did, we’d surely believe you then!”  Can you imagine the temptation Jesus might have faced?  Indeed, in the garden with his disciples the night before, he has already laid his cards out with his Father, begging that he not actually have to go through with the whole thing, desperate to find another way out.

Abandoned and hanging on a cross, Jesus, the Son of God, stayed.  While he was spit on, ridiculed, beaten, and nailed, he refused to turn his back on the people who were torturing him.  Jesus never pulled the release valve, Jesus never left us.  He was committed to showing humanity what love means by never turning his back on us even if that meant that he would have to die.  There was finally nothing else left for Evil to try except to force God’s hand by threatening him with death if he didn’t give up on people.  Jesus stayed.

The same crowds who had shouted a few days earlier that he was their hero turned quickly into the angry, jealous crowds who pushed at him to crack and then turned their backs to let him die. How often do we experience the same swift change in our lives?  Our best friend suddenly becomes our most effective attacker; our well-ordered life is shaken into a disaster; the most reliable part of our day is ripped out from under us, leaving a gaping hole.  We all suffer abandonment that leaves us wondering which way is up.

Though we may not know which way is up, or how to keep moving through the mess of life, or how to withstand the attacks of someone we love, Jesus has shown that God will stay right next to us.  Staying meant death, but Jesus chose not to use his power as God to get him out of the mess humanity had made around him; he only ever called upon the power of God to help others, never himself.

Jesus still calls upon the power of God to help us, even though we’re just as fickle and cowardly and arrogant and skeptical as the crowds who surrounded him at his death.  Jesus never left them alone, even when the price to stay was death.  Even though we turn our backs on God, he will never leave us alone. Jesus stays, Jesus stays.